Honest words are always the right kind of words and thank you for them. I really do appreciate them. You have yourself a great night :)
If I’m honest, these last few months have been scarier than even the most frightening of horror movies. I am scared to fall asleep because I keep dreaming of you, I am petrified beyond belief to inherit the diseases that claimed you and our other family members. Every racing heart or headache feels like a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. I am frightened to be alone in case the explosion comes; even something as simple as walking the 900 metres from campus alone leads to full on panic. At any given moment, my legs have become a weary bridge about to give way and this frightens me. I’m scared that I’ll leave before life begins and like you and your brother, I’ll never have a chance to live. The worst part is, the only word I ever trusted was yours and I no longer have it to tell me it will be okay.